Day Of Reckoning ??!!??

26th April!! How soon that day has come! 


And no matter how much I don't WANT to think of it, it's occurrence is brimming under my subconscious . So what's so special about this day? Well, as juvenile as it may sound, it's the day of my results! An irritating fear in mostly every students mind. And I don't fear it just because I fear my marks or my ability to pass, it's the other things which make me fear it.

I made a promise to my parents long ago. That I would try to get a good percentage in order to get something I had coveted for a long time. Did my parents use it as a bribe ?? Yes !Did I buy it ??  Who wouldn't ?? I fully hoped that I would be able to fulfill their demand. But now I'm not so sure. Actually, I'm not!! But hope does spring eternal !! Maybe I did better than I think?? Wishful thinking?? I hope not...

Another reason why I'm dreading this day is because it makes things so final. That's it!  You've passed! You're in your final year. Yes, it's a good thing to be sure you're passing, but that isn't what I meant! It signifies the end to jubilation . To unwarrantable wastage  of time. To listlessness. To indecisiveness. To refusing to live up to expectations. 

Does it sound a bit too over the top ?? Maybe I'm just over analyzing this occasion. But maybe not. 

I haven't planned anything for the future . Not my style. I'm too impetuous. I'm a too " living in the moment " kind of person. And while that is not a bad thing, it is not at attitude which augurs to well for the future. 

A friend of mine who is the complete antithesis of me recently got into an amazing educational institution and she really deserves it. For all the planning and hard work she put in. But's its so difficult to be like her. But maybe I can try for a year?!


Here's what Noah and the Whale have to say about it::

It's the first day of spring

And my life is starting over again

The trees grow, the river flows

And its water will wash away my sins

For I do believe that everyone has one chance

To fuck up their lives

But like a cut down tree, I will rise again

And I'll be bigger and stronger than ever before

On Keeping Promises

It's easy to say "Yes" to something. But so difficult to go through with it..

I always thought I was an  incredibly resourceful person. That I would know what to do whenever a crisis occurred and I would be and excellent "Thinking On My Feet" kind of person. Sadly, 'm not as good as my imaginative projection of myself. I doubt myself a lot. Especially in silly matters. I like working hard. But I don't have the patience to get through with it. I want to achieve great things in life. But I don't have the determination to go through with it. I always let myself down especially at the last. When most of the fighting is over. 


I'm a 90% person. I slog till I get it almost done. But that last bit. That last extra effort. That's where my carefully constructed sand castle comes tumbling down . And then it takes even longer to pick up the pieces. Irritating, isn't it?


I hate it when I doubt myself. I hate it when I'm indecisive and unsure of the path ahead. I like being certain. Not in everything. But certainly in knowing my own mind and my own abilities. There is something intriguing about uncertainty in some things. 

"It is often in the darkest 

skies that we see the 

brightest stars

Maybe it is is good to have these doubting sessions sometimes. Maybe it helps you understand yourself better. Maybe it makes you more certain of things in a way. Maybe everyone can live beyond what they're 

capable of. 

And there will come a time, you'll see, with no more tears.

And love will not break your heart, but dismiss your fears.

Get over your hill and see what you find there,

With grace in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Maybe one day, I'll see this period as one of the foundations of life. One of those things that makes you stronger. Something which will lift you from your abyss of despair. Of uncertainty. Its times like these when you truly get a holistic understanding of your character and resolve in life. 


As Mumford & Sons say:

Love it will not betray you

Dismay or enslave you, it will set you free

Be more like the man you were made to be

There is a design, an alignment, a cry

Of my heart to see,

The beauty of love as it was made to be

Maybe I'll just live like I love. Carefree. Generously. Wholly. Alive.

IPL Observations....

I really feel it has come all too soon and the sort of pride and national patriotism which was hovering around the nation due to the World Cup win has sort of disintegrated into this territorial division of loyalties. With the recent shuffling of players,it has become even more difficult to establish a proper team loyalty base. Do you support your City or your favourite player??? Fortunately for me, there is no issue ( Thank God, I can support Mumbai Indians whole heartedly and no be confused by my apparent liking for England , South Africa or India)

But the IPL is not all the exciting and fun to watch.. :( :(

Most matches are really one sided... Sad to watch ..really


Anyway,lets start on a few observations:

1. DELHI DAREDEVILS : What a shocking team indeed. Everyone who made up the  team has been sent away... No Vettori! No De Villiers! No Gambhir! No Collingwood! Really sad indeed

2. DECCAN CHARGERS & PUNJAB SUPER KINGS: Same problem. But Punjab is the worse off . At least Deccan has Dale Steyn and Sangakarra.

Anyway, the worst thing ever is the UNIFORM of the teams . Below are the teams:

1. KOCHI TUSKERS KERELA

Orange & Purple??? What are the designers thinking?? ' Gaudy" is an understatement....

Brendon McCullum ( who is HOT) is not
spared... Looks like a burnt shrimp
here.. 

So not appealing...

.

2. CHENNAI SUPER KINGS

They might be the defending Champions.. But no awards for their taste in apparel... Lemon Yellow!!! On grown Men!! 

Love Dhoni!! But he looks like this shrivelled up
 daffodil here...

Such a good looking guy is Albie Morkel.. but
he looks like my runny egg yolk here.. ewww

3. DECCAN CHARGERS

The colour "Shrek" is not in vogue anymore.. Preferred their previous uniform...

4. DELHI DAREDEVILS

Their uniform is the same, though the team is changed. Not a good idea really!!

Pathan looks nice too.... 

Morne Morkel!! Can spend hours looking
at him... :)

 5. KOLKATA KNIGHT RIDERS

Black & Gold!!! Sounds right in theory!! But not everyone can carry it off!!!

The Pads look the best!!!

6. PUNE WARRIORS SAHARA

The Black is Ok, but pair that with Puke Green!! Wrong there!! 

I didnt say it was horrible, but not really a "Wow" factor...

Somehow, Yuvraj carries it off!!! :)

7. KINGS XI PUNJAB

Its plain and boring!!! Enough said!!!

8. RAJASTHAN ROYALS

Royal Blue looks good on most of the lads... Liked the earlier uniform better .. there was a lot more Gold in it!!!

Johan Botha looks as dashing as ever... :)

Rahul Dravid.. is not so bad himself!!!

9. ROYAL CHALLENGERS BANGALORE

Red + Gold makes even the ordinary guys look like super heroes!! Glad the uniform is the same... 

AB De Villiers looks as elegant and stylish as he plays!!!

Dont like the blue strip though.... 

10. MUMBAI INDIANS

The Dashing Men In Blue look like rocks among the stormy frenzy of weird colours!! Subtle but still makes a statement!!

There isn't anything you can say... Its the perfect colour...

So, the uniforms were OK!!

The matches are pretty boring.

Any reason to watch it then...??

Not really, unless you are crazy about cricket!! And want to just ogle at some of your favourite cricketers..
;)

On The World Cup!!!!

Yes!!!!!! India Won!!!!!! Whoopppeee!!!!


World cup fever!! What do I say about it?? It's like a madness which creeps through the bones of every Indian and makes even the most serious and sane person completely lose control. Even I'm not excluded from this insane behaviour. But it's the bloody World Cup!! Who cares about being sane and normal and or so calm and Boring!!! Cricket is in my blood!! It's my religion!! I love the game. 

My colony has literally gone crazy. A huge projector was set up and we had a DJ and the entire
colony danced and celebrated. It was an awesome experience. People have jumped in the pool. There's live music!! Its like a National Day Reunion!!

Cricket is something which unites everyone together. Enemies become friends. It's like the World War is won. And if it's against Pakistan, it's like an all out war!! When you're watching the final its like War!! And when patriotic songs like "Vande Mataram " come up, you cant help but just swell with pride and love for your country...

And the best thing I love is the superstitions people have.
 Sit in that position with your legs crossed. Put your chair in this angle and don't get up. 
Start shouting slogans like- 

Jeetega hi jeetega, India hi jeetega

( we'll win, we'll win. India will win) 

OR

 "Who can ?? Zaheer Khan!!  

   Kiske sar par Hoga Taaj? Yuvraj!!

 ( On whose head shall sit the crown? Yuvraj! The Hindi word for crown in Taaj which is why it makes sense) 

But it's even better when you do all these things and then an opposing wicket falls or a four is hit. It may not be logical but it rejuvenates you and makes ulyou feel involved. 

I have loved the World Cup And I'm super proud my country has hosted such an awesome event. It gives everyone a sense of pride and a boost especially after so many fiascos like the CWG scam or the 2G scam.
I didn't get an opportunity to go for the World Cup. Maybe some other time.

Kyle and his fav. player - Virat Kohli!!

Zaheer is too awesome....

I don't Hate him anymore...

An Absolute Legend!!!

A True Hero!!!

India win!!

Its time to be Insane...

I don't care if you'll think this is lame!!! I'm posing with India!!! Yes!!

World Champions!!!

The Dream Is Fulfilled...

I loved my crazy "Supporting" sessions for England and South Africa...But watching the Final was just amazing. I felt so alive. And I Love my Country so much at this moment. I feel so complete at this moment. Its hard to describe how important a team is to you. Although Cricket is just a sport, it just means so much more. I did support England ( sometimes even versus India...) but it never made sense. It didn't mean so much . 


Most people might say i just like India now because we won.. But I think it's because I've realised what I truly am. I'm Indian!!! And I'm Bloody Proud of it. I may love British TV or African safaris or even some Brit or Saffa cricketers, but it's just not as important or as long lasting as the feeling you get when your own country does it for you...


The World Cup Is Over....


 The IPL is yet to come!!

Rooting for Mumbai Indians!!