26th April!! How soon that day has come!
And no matter how much I don't WANT to think of it, it's occurrence is brimming under my subconscious . So what's so special about this day? Well, as juvenile as it may sound, it's the day of my results! An irritating fear in mostly every students mind. And I don't fear it just because I fear my marks or my ability to pass, it's the other things which make me fear it.
I made a promise to my parents long ago. That I would try to get a good percentage in order to get something I had coveted for a long time. Did my parents use it as a bribe ?? Yes !Did I buy it ?? Who wouldn't ?? I fully hoped that I would be able to fulfill their demand. But now I'm not so sure. Actually, I'm not!! But hope does spring eternal !! Maybe I did better than I think?? Wishful thinking?? I hope not...
Another reason why I'm dreading this day is because it makes things so final. That's it! You've passed! You're in your final year. Yes, it's a good thing to be sure you're passing, but that isn't what I meant! It signifies the end to jubilation . To unwarrantable wastage of time. To listlessness. To indecisiveness. To refusing to live up to expectations.
Does it sound a bit too over the top ?? Maybe I'm just over analyzing this occasion. But maybe not.
I haven't planned anything for the future . Not my style. I'm too impetuous. I'm a too " living in the moment " kind of person. And while that is not a bad thing, it is not at attitude which augurs to well for the future.
A friend of mine who is the complete antithesis of me recently got into an amazing educational institution and she really deserves it. For all the planning and hard work she put in. But's its so difficult to be like her. But maybe I can try for a year?!
Here's what Noah and the Whale have to say about it::
And no matter how much I don't WANT to think of it, it's occurrence is brimming under my subconscious . So what's so special about this day? Well, as juvenile as it may sound, it's the day of my results! An irritating fear in mostly every students mind. And I don't fear it just because I fear my marks or my ability to pass, it's the other things which make me fear it.
I made a promise to my parents long ago. That I would try to get a good percentage in order to get something I had coveted for a long time. Did my parents use it as a bribe ?? Yes !Did I buy it ?? Who wouldn't ?? I fully hoped that I would be able to fulfill their demand. But now I'm not so sure. Actually, I'm not!! But hope does spring eternal !! Maybe I did better than I think?? Wishful thinking?? I hope not...
Another reason why I'm dreading this day is because it makes things so final. That's it! You've passed! You're in your final year. Yes, it's a good thing to be sure you're passing, but that isn't what I meant! It signifies the end to jubilation . To unwarrantable wastage of time. To listlessness. To indecisiveness. To refusing to live up to expectations.
Does it sound a bit too over the top ?? Maybe I'm just over analyzing this occasion. But maybe not.
I haven't planned anything for the future . Not my style. I'm too impetuous. I'm a too " living in the moment " kind of person. And while that is not a bad thing, it is not at attitude which augurs to well for the future.
A friend of mine who is the complete antithesis of me recently got into an amazing educational institution and she really deserves it. For all the planning and hard work she put in. But's its so difficult to be like her. But maybe I can try for a year?!
Here's what Noah and the Whale have to say about it::
It's the first day of spring
And my life is starting over again
The trees grow, the river flows
And its water will wash away my sins
For I do believe that everyone has one chance
To fuck up their lives
But like a cut down tree, I will rise again
And I'll be bigger and stronger than ever before
Fingers crossed you did well and that you got the results you wanted! :)
ReplyDeleteI did actually!!! I got 80% which was surprising to say the least...
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